I’m a really smart person. That is not arrogance talking — that is merely a confident point of view about my abilities and mentality. However, this comes with many people trying to live my life for me.

I overheard an ex-girlfriend once say, “Nick is so fucking smart… why doesn’t he do something with it?”.

Like I’m sitting here lubing up my thumbs so I can stick them up my own ass and spin in circles going, “Dur dee dur durr“. That pisses me off so much. Yes, I am a sharp cookie, but just because I am sitting at home writing stories on a crappy web site doesn’t take away from my brilliance. I am not “wasting anything”. In fact, I am taking my time with my life because I can. I am perfecting my craft. If writing is it, great. If not, I can always try again.

I’m not someone that rushes into life. I play my cards like a mental tactician. I see all the angles. I observe all the possibilities. THEN I MAKE MY MOVE. Just because I’m not a neurosurgeon at 25 doesn’t mean I won’t be one at 35.

It’s like everybody expects people to do things instantaneously. I’m 25 years old. I didn’t even figure out I had half a brain until I was 19. I wasn’t an actual “man” until I was 21. And right now I’m still learning.

Now people tell me to be a writer. Great, thanks! I’ll get on that right away!

I wouldn’t be writing the things I did unless I knew I had an audience. Granted, my audience is meager at best, but hey… everybody has to start somewhere. I can honestly say for the first time in my life I am setting in motion plans for ME that I WANT TO DO. This is the Nick Sterling show and I am running it full steam ahead. I’m not doing this for my ex-girlfriends, my mom, or my best friends. I’m doing it for ME, baby!

I can’t knock on the office door of Maxim magazine or GQ and say, “Hi, I’m Nick. My Myspace friends think I’m a funny writer. Got any 6 figure jobs available?”. Life doesn’t work like that. It took me over a year to realize that I am who I am, and regardless of what other people think of me, I am going to go at my own pace because that is who I am.

I think it’s juvenile to pass judgment on someone who is supposedly smart but doesn’t do anything with it. Just because I’m not doing anything uber-important right NOW doesn’t mean I won’t be doing something spectacular TOMORROW. Even if it’s destined for me to be working at a grocery store the rest of my life then at least I’ll have the ability to strengthen my abilities elsewhere. Maybe I won’t be a millionaire at 28 like I wanted, but at least I am a millionaire in heart because of the types of friends I have made and kept for years. And shit, even if I’m on Myspace writing stupid blogs ten years from now, at the very least I’ll become a better writer in the process. I do everything for myself and never for the perception of what someone may think about me. That is my process.

I look at some of my ex-girlfriends and observe their process. I disagree with everything they are doing — but hey, that is their life and who am I to pass judgment on what I see RIGHT NOW? That is what un-evolved people do. I try to focus on the bigger picture of everything. My ex’s may be hitting mental roadblocks now but they will get out of them and become everything I envisioned for them, if not more. I loved them for a reason because I saw that potential.

And if it takes until 40 for me to finally put my brain to use, then fine. I’d much rather spend decades improving my brain so when the time comes to finally use it, its at it’s highest point.

So when I meet a special girl, I am the best boyfriend.
So when I get married, I am the best husband.
So when I have kids I am the strongest father for OUR child.
So when I help raise our children I am the most wise.
So when I put forth my work ethic I am the best leader.
So when I decide to smile, I am the most happiest.
So when I decide to leave this life I do so with a sense of accomplishment.

SHIT TAKES TIME! All of you trying to fast forward your lives really need to slow down and appreciate the down time while you have it. I have it at 25. Pretty soon we’ll be worrying about mortgages, tuition payments for our kids, and retirement. It back, relax, and soak up the virtues of youth while you still have it. I am.